Showing posts from September, 2004

How Long

How long do I continue to speak God's word to people who do not listen? When is enough enough? I'm so weary of speaking the Truth of God into people who continue to choose to put Him out of their lives. Church is just a game to them, somewhere where they can go so they know that they are better than the rest of the "losers" in town who don't go to church. Don't get me wrong, they watch the same movies, listen to the same music, yell at the refs just the same as the "losers" but they are better because they belong to church. Jesus told his disciples to shake the dust off their feet when they left a town who did not hear them. In all three instances in the Gospels, it says "when you leave" so my question is when do you leave? I have to watch myself, or I will slip back into my old trap of formulaism. Meaning, I look for the formula, and many times I will leave God out of it. The obvious answer is "When God Tells you to" I gues

I'm Tired of This

As you might know, I am a youth pastor. And have some shocking news. I don't want to do this anymore. You know why? Because at my church, I feel like I was hired to do the ministry, and they all sit back. I don't want to be a minister. I want to lead people in ministry. To be a "lead minister" if you will. To many churches hire pastors and youth pastors and music guys and children pastors and small group pastors, and then expect them to do all the work. That is not the way it should be. I want to equip people to seek after God, to teach them, to release them. For them to come to me and say, "I've noticed there is a lot of single moms in our area, I want to minister to them." Then we can give them time, money, resources, everything they need to effectively reach the world around them. However, too many churches all over the place simply hire people and sit back to let them reach everyone. And I hate it. I so long to be at a church where everyone is act


How does a Christian be in the world and not of it. How do I live a life of holiness, but still reach people. How could Christ be God in the flesh, perfect and Holy, without sin of any kind, but still be so accessible to people. I have such a desire for the holy life, to walk with God as Enoch, to live so close to him, to speak with him as Moses did. I find the Holy life pulls me more and more away from the world. I just read The Present Future by Reggie Mcneal. It was given to me by a friend. All of these books about the new church and changing the church all talk about engaging the culture. So how do I do it? I don't want to watch the movies they watch. I don't want to listen to the music they do. I don't want to watch the t.v. shows the watch. I want to live a life of no compromise. Of living absolutely above reproach. I want no sin in my life. No question about anything. I want to live just like Jesus lived on the earth. I am suppossed to be an imitator o